I should’ve written about him earlier. Here’s the story:
We met at a bar, that same week he texted me and we went out for a coffee at Starbuck’s. That night he caught my interest with his many tastes and ideals. We had a great first kiss the next week and went on seeing eachother. He’d shown to be a little too insecure for my taste, but still he was a good guy and treated me very nicely.
Until the time came when I wanted to start a sex life together and, apparently, he didn’t. After many trials and much discussion, he finally confessed to me that sex for him was something “sacred”, and he needed a stronger bond with the other person in order to do it.
Not that there’s anything wrong with that, I even admire it. But I need a man who desires me no matter what, I can’t be with someone whom I’ve been dating for over a month and whose sex drive haven’t increased one bit.
Just another typical case of REALITY x EXPECTATIONS. I honestly don’t think I’m expecting too much: all I want is a guy who wants to have sex with a pretty girl and who does everything in his power to make that happen, COME ON! So, I can only assume we’re really not meant for eachother. He’ll find a girl who thinks like him.
CURRENT STATE OF THINGS:
He asked for a second chance, I agreed, he blew it, I got pissed. I felt ugly and undesired because I thought the issue was that he didn’t want to have sex with me. So we talked about it and I ended things definitely.
Right now I’m considering asking for a second chance myself because I miss the feeling of having a boyfriend.
I went out tonight and realized I was back to where I had to keep looking for guys everytime I go out. And I absolutely hate that. I hate one night stands. I want a boyfriend.
How to proceed?